Hello hello. How are you all? It’s been over a month since my last post and I’m not sure where that time has gone. It’s been so long that I’d even forgotten how to start a new post. I’m writing this as my Internet has finally been sorted. You would have probably seen from my tweets if you follow me on Twitter. For the last 6 months my Internet has not been faster than 0.17mpbs at work, and I’m still waiting for Internet at home. After trying to get it fixed various times, I’d had enough and phoned to leave – it was only then that they offered a fibre connection which has been installed today. I’m now getting 30mbps – for a cheaper price than I was paying for 0.17mbps. Work that one out? I feel over the moon to actually be able to work, edit photos, write, (download Animal Crossing)…

I wanted to write a hopefully little health/life/house update before I go back to posting regular content. And obviously share my Christmas Giveaway with you. For months I have been absolutely exhausted. To a point that I’d be wanting a nap at my desk in the middle of the day, despite sleeping 8+ hours. I felt like I’d tried everything from drinking more water, to exercising, overhauling my diet, sleeping longer, sleeping less. I was getting home from work at 6pm and I could just about manage my daily tasks before collapsing on the sofa. Yet alone consider writing or working on the house. It was beyond ridiculous. I decided to book an appointment for a blood test to check if there was anything causing this extreme tiredness and was quite quickly diagnosed with Iron and Vitamin B12 deficiency.

As a result I have been taking Iron tablets twice daily and I’ve had 2 out of 5 of my Vitamin B12 shots. I am feeling so much better already. Of course I’m not expecting it to work miracles straight away but that little bit of extra energy has made a world of difference to me. I’m finally able to sit down with a cup of tea and write, without falling asleep at my desk. I’ve even done a lot of baking too!

As for the house, we’ve spent the last couple of weekends working on it after a few months off. The kitchen is very nearly finished. We’ve got about another day to go on it fitting and painting the skirting boards, kitchen plinths and fitting the blinds. And we have a working downstairs toilet too which was important to us to get finished before our families come and stay over Christmas. We’ve even bought a dining room table. All these little things are slowly but surely making it feel like home.

We’ve got a few other things we’re wanting to tick off our “house to-do list” before Christmas is upon us but we’re not going to stress ourselves out about it either. Then next year we’ve got the big job of renovating the main bathroom. Oh my I’m so excited to have a bath again. I’ll be publishing my 2018 “house to-do list” shortly as I know it’ll motivate me to get things done. It’s a very long list though…

Christmas Giveaway

And then it’s on to the bit you’ve all been waiting for. My Christmas Giveaway. I didn’t get around to doing my “5000 Twitter Follower Giveaway” so you’ve got one big one instead. I’m thrilled to be giving you the opportunity to win all of these lovely products including some of my favourites. All of these products are worth a whopping £180. I’m going to be announcing the winner on Christmas Day so I’m sure this will make a wonderful Christmas present for someone. The first two options are mandatory but there’s plenty of options for extra entries too. And make sure you keep an eye on my Twitter as I’ll be doing a few other giveaways on the run up to Christmas. (UK only. Crate not included)

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I hope you’ve enjoyed reading this little life update. Don’t forget to enter my Christmas Giveaway.

Until next time,

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Last month Sam and I went on an adventure. As you may have read in my previous post, we decided to skip our “abroad” holiday this year. And venture out in one of our campervan’s instead. As “Campervans” is what we do for a living we usually have one of our rental vans sitting in the workshop just waiting to be taken on an adventure. Whenever we have time for a holiday, we’re so quick to jump on a plane abroad. We often forget about the beautiful country we have right at our feet. So that’s when we decided to go on the Ultimate Camping Trip Around Devon and Cornwall.

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The view of St. Ives from Ayr Holiday Park

Ayr Holiday Park - The Ultimate Camping Trip Around Devon and Cornwall

And we’re off

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Teignmouth Seafront

I was determined this really was going to be the Ultimate Camping Trip. So I turned to the various Camping/Campervan Forums I’m on on Facebook for inspiration and suggestions. And my gosh you did not disappoint! We had over 200 different recommendations of places to see, stay and eat. I’ve listed every single recommendation at the bottom of this post for you in case you’d like to have a read through. As although we wanted to visit every single place, we would have needed at least a year. This was what I asked on Facebook.

“I need your recommendations! We’re travelling around Devon and Cornwall for a week at the end of the month. Starting in Exeter, travelling along the south coast then back up the north.

Could I have your recommendations of picturesque, beautiful places to stay/visit along the way and things to see/do whilst we’re there? It’ll be the two of us and our dog Milo so dog friendly is a must! We have 6 nights in total and will stay at a different campsite each night so please get recommending the best places you’ve ever stayed! We’re not overly bothered about the campsite amenities, just a warm shower, it’s more about seeing and appreciating the beautiful country we live in! Thank you!!!”

The recommendations flew in. And I got planning almost immediately. The six places we decided to stay were Dartmouth, Mevagissy, Penzance, St Ives, Bude and Lynmouth.

We started our journey bright and early on Monday 25th September. Leaving our house in Bristol at around 9am and heading straight to Teignmouth to visit a friend. Neither of us had ever been to Teignmouth before. It was absolutely beautiful, made 100% better by the weather. We had a stroll along the seafront and played some of the arcade games on the pier and then headed to Finn Mccools Fish and Chip Shop for lunch.  We walked along to the Teignmouth “Back Beach” to eat them, whilst taking in the views across the River Teign.

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Milo was fed an Ice Cream at the Bayside Beach Shop

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Torquay Harbour

From Teignmouth we headed to Torquay. Only a 30 minute drive away. Over the whole 7 days I tried to keep the drives in between places no longer than 45 minutes. We didn’t spend long in Torquay but knew we wanted to stop. Again we strolled down the seafront towards the Bayside Beach Shop for an ice cream. But we weren’t the only ones that got an ice cream, the owner made Milo one (for free may I add) and fed it to him. How lovely of her?

Our first night was spent at Broadleigh Farm in Totnes (£13 per night). This was a basic but clean campsite. Plenty of pitches, nice walks around the area and really warm toilet/shower blocks. I made the most of this. There’s nothing worse than getting out of the shower and being freezing cold. We didn’t really stay at any of the campsites long – instead used them as somewhere to sleep and wash, ready to continue our journey the next day.

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The view from Burgh Island

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Burgh Island “Sea Tractor”

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Milo enjoying Burgh Island

We headed into Salcombe for Breakfast the following morning. I had a Spicy Vegetable Pasty and Sam went for a traditional Steak [and yes, we did live off of pasties and fish and chips for the entire week]. We stayed in Salcombe for quite a while before making our way to Burgh Island. Somewhere I would definitely suggest stopping at if you’re passing. It’s cut off from land at high tide and you have to take the “sea tractor” back to Bigbury. There’s a gorgeous beach that Milo enjoyed tearing around and some wonderful walks on Burgh Island itself. We then went into Plymouth to see Milo’s Mum [crazy dog Mum over here] as he hadn’t seen her since we got him over 3 years ago. I’m not sure whether they recognised each other but it was so lovely to see her. I can’t believe how big Milo is in comparison.

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Mevagissy Fishing Village

We spent our second night at Seaview International, St. Austel (£12 per night), stopping in the fishing town of Mevagissy on the way. We had dinner in the café on site and got an early night. I didn’t realise how much walking we’d be doing. We were walking around 20km a day and were absolutely knackered by the end of the week.

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Lizard Point

We planned to spend day 3 travelling around the Lizard Peninsula but were quite unfortunate with the weather on the Wednesday. It is England after all… Instead we headed straight to Lizard Point, had a little walk when the rain stopped and went into Falmouth instead. We weren’t planning on stopping in Falmouth but it’s somewhere we know well and there’s lots of shops to look in to avoid the rain. We spent the third night at Treverven Touring Park in Penzance (£13.50 per night). This was a very basic campsite but had everything you need for a one night stopover. I wouldn’t recommended any longer than a couple of nights here.

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The Minack Theatre

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Porthcurno Beach

I’m trying so hard to keep this short but I’m queen of rambling. We had lots to see on Day 4. First was the Minack Theatre. This was £5 to get in and as much as I begrudge paying entry fees to “landmarks” this really was worth it. The views were breathtaking as well as the history of the Minack Theatre. We also discovered Porthcurno Beach whilst at the Minack Theatre. This part of Cornwall definitely has the best beaches. From here is was on to Land’s End. Well, sort of. We parked a bit further on from Land’s End at Sennen Cove and walked the beautiful coastal path to Land’s End instead. It’s only £1 to park for an hour here, compared to the £6 Land’s End expect. I dislike Land’s End more and more each time though. They now charge £10 for a photo with the sign!

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St Just and Bottalack Mines

St Just and Bottalack Mines - The Ultimate Camping Trip Around Devon and Cornwall

St Just and Bottalack Mines

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The view of St. Ives from Ayr Holiday Park

From Land’s End we went to visit the Botallack/St Just Mines, which also happen to be a Poldark fliming location, and trekked miles around the coast. Gosh we really did do a lot this day. We stayed at the Ayr Holiday Park in St. Ives (£26 per night). Definitely the most expensive campsite we’ve stayed at but by far the most luxury. The facilities were second to none, with showers that actually stayed on for more than 30 seconds. You also have access to the Indoor Pool/Spa at the Hotel onsite and it’s only a 10 minute walk to the beautiful St. Ives itself.

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House on Towan Island, Newquay

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The home of Doc Martin – Port Isaac

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“Doc’s House”

From St. Ives we headed into Newquay. Another place that we’d planned to skip this time around as we’ve visited so many times. But something drew us back in and we’re glad it did. We had a lovely morning running around the beaches and paddling in the sea with Milo. Then we travelled to one of my favourite stops from the trip – Port Isaac. It’s the village where Doc Martin is filmed which is something Mum and I loved watching. It was exciting to see the places in “real life”. Such a quaint little village with beautiful cobbled streets. We stopped at the bakery, grabbed a “make your own” cream tea then climbed up a hill to take in these gorgeous views.

We stayed at Wooda Farm, Bude (£14 per night) for the 5th night, which is another site I’d most definitely recommend. It was a 5* site with 5* facilities and a really affordable price. We didn’t do much in Bude itself, just more walking. The first place we went on Saturday morning was Westward Ho! – somewhere we always make a point of stopping. We spent a little bit of time here, had some fun in the arcades and took Milo for a walk along the seafront. We headed to Channel View, Lynmouth (£14 per night) for our final night. Stopping for a walk to Tintagel Castle on the way.

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The river running through Lynton and Lynmouth

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Lynton and Lynmouth Cliff Railway

The last day of our trip was spent in Lynton and Lynmouth. The weather wasn’t great, but it did stop raining for a walk around the town and a trip on the Lynton and Lynmouth Cliff Railway. A must see if you’re in the area. It was one of our favourite places we visited during our trip and we’re definitely planning to go again when the weather is nicer and spend a little more time there. I fell in love with some of the little gift shops and Milo enjoyed paddling in the river. Then it was time for the 2 hour journey back into Bristol. Stopping to visit my Grandma on the way. The week really made me appreciate the beautiful country we live in.

And breathe. I really did try to make that as short as possible but we did so much, I didn’t want to miss things. I’ve left the list of other suggestions below. I’d love to hear if you’d visited any of the places.

What do you think of this Camping Trip Around Devon and Cornwall? Have you visited any of the places mentioned?

Until next time,

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Other suggestions of places to stay/visit:

Valley of the Rocks – Perrenporth – Tintagel Waterfalls – Little Meadow Campsite – Peppers Pantry (pub) – Lyme Regis – South Milton Sands – Hope Cove – Crantock Beach – Polperro/Looe – Boscastle – Padstow – Kynance Cove – Hunters Lodge (pub) – Wembury – Mowgan Porth – Harlyn Bay – Eden Project – Lusty Glaze – Fowey – Ilfracombe Bay – Hayle Towans – Church Cove – Clovelly – Mother Ivy Bay – Mullion – Fistral Beach – Saunton Beach – Gwithian – Hollywell Bay – Pollyjoke – Prussia Cove – Lydford Gorge  – St. Michael’s Mount – Woolacombe – Combe Martin – The Rame Peninsula – Cape Cornwall – Polzeth – Praa Sands – Bedruthan Steps – Appledore – Port William – Brixham – Paignton

Just writing that title is making me anxious. I’ve wanted to write this for a while but have kept putting it off. I know, or hope, I can help a lot of people by talking about my experiences. But at the same time they’re not experiences that many are aware of so putting it online for the world to see is a little [very] daunting to me.  A Binge Eating Disorder is something that has affected me for many many years. Yet I feel like it took hitting “rock bottom” only very recently for me to realise how much of a problem it had become. A point that I hope this article stops my readers getting to. And a point I hope never to return to.

My Binge Eating Disorder

My first memories of my Binge Eating Disorder was when I was around 13 or 14 and started earning my own money. As much as I wanted to [and did] spend this money on clothes, shoes, make-up, I also spent a fair bit on sweets, crisps etc. And I know you’re all thinking “that is what we all do when we start earning money” – thinking back, the extent of it really wasn’t normal. I’m not going to go into much detail about all those years ago as my memories are quite faded. Instead I want to talk about my recent experiences as I finally feel like I’m coming out of the other side of this. My mindset has changed so much. I am motivated and determined.

I’ve always been a slimmer person. My “average” weight is a little below 9 stone. So it was hard for people to understand how this disorder was affecting me, even to those closest to me. Even now, after speaking out about it I’ve genuinely had people say to me “you’re not fat so it’s obviously not much of a problem” and right now, I bet a lot of you are thinking this too.

So let me tell you about my eating habits – my unhealthy relationship with food. This year was going to be the year I got “the body of my dreams” and honestly? The harder I pushed, the more weight I put on. My body image, my self-worth, my confidence was awful. It went as far as cancelling my summer holiday abroad because I couldn’t think of anything worse than wearing a bikini, or even shorts. I wore jumpers and blazers throughout the entire summer because I hated my arms. I covered up every part of my body I could. My skin was spotty, my hair was dry, my nails were brittle. The more depressed I got about my body image, the more I binged. That’s probably hard to contemplate, but if you’re also struggling with this, you’ll know exactly what I was going through at that time.

This summer was when “rock bottom” happened. It went as far as eating 7 packets of crisps in a row. Or 6 chocolate bars. Sneaking downstairs for an ice cream at midnight. Eating an entire pack of muffins at my desk. Binging in my car so no one would know. And do you know how I’d counteract those binges? I’d end up starving myself to make up for “all those extra calories”. But there was only a certain amount of time this could work for. Over time, the binges got worse, and far more regular, and I couldn’t keep the weight off. However hard I tried. I’d put on over a stone. This is when “rock bottom” happened. And when I realised I needed help.

But that realisation triggered something in me. Asking for help made me realise my problem. How far it had got. How far it was going to go if I didn’t do something about it. In the end the only person that was going to help me was myself. It just took me a long time to realise that. These tweets were where it began.

 

 

To begin with, I struggled daily. Tweeting about my accomplishments, about going that “one more day” without a binge. Food was an addiction for me. A comfort. And it was so hard to give that up but I knew I had to. I spent some time researching Binge Eating Disorders and what it could do to my health in the long haul. Health problems can include obesity, diabetes, high blood pressure as well as mental health problems such as depression and anxiety. I knew I had to do something about it.

I made a point of having a big breakfast in the morning. At first I hated it. I couldn’t think of anything worse than eating first thing in the morning. But now I go to sleep dreaming of the breakfast I’m going to have when I wake up. Having a big breakfast meant that I’d stay full until lunchtime and not be tempted to snack. I was then eating hearty, carb filled lunches such as sweet potato soup which would release energy slowly throughout the day. It was always the afternoons I’d find the most difficult – which saw me diving into the “treats” box at work. Muffins, sweets, crisps, chocolate. I decided to make my own “treats” box. Yet fill it with fruit, nuts, lentil crisps, cereal bars, carrots, hummus, you name it. And this is what I started to dive into when I was hungry.

The binges stopped. I started to understand hunger. And differentiate it from boredom, or emotion. I suppose it all sounds so simple. Something just triggered inside of me that said “I can do this”. And I did. I focused on me. My life. I can’t believe how much things have changed in just over a month. And of course I know I’m not out of the woods yet. I’ve still got a long long way to go. But my entire mindset has changed, I’m a much better, happier person. The way I think about myself has changed massively. I still have those days where I hate every little thing about me but knowing I’m doing something to change that really really helps.

As hard as it has been for me to speak out [and please stop me from getting anxious and deleting this post] if it helps only one person I will feel like I’ve achieved something. Although Binge Eating Disorders are life-threatening, many still don’t consider them a “real eating disorder”. But in all honestly, they’re just as dangerous as Anorexia or Bulimia and we need to start taking it more seriously. I know there’s so much more I want and need to say here but I could go on forever. I want to use this to spread awareness but I will write an updated post in the near future.

I really hope speaking out about my Binge Eating Disorder will help others in the same position as me. My DMs are open on Twitter [as always] if you’d like to speak to me about anything.

Until next time,

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For reference – some common signs of a binge eating disorder as taken from the NHS choices site are;

  • Secret eating
  • eating when you’re not hungry
  • feelings of guilt after eating
  • eating until you’re uncomfortably full
  • eating much faster than normal

Factors that may increase your risk of a binge eating disorder are;

  • having low self-esteem and lack of confidence
  • depression or anxiety
  • feelings of stress, anger or loneliness
  • feeling under pressure to be thin

When I was invited to attend Valley Fest as a guest of Weleda I jumped at the chance. Valley Fest is based within the Chew Valley Lakes, Chew Magna to be exact, which is only a 30 minute drive from mine. It’s nice to be able to attend an event that’s a little more local to me, rather than having to spend half the day travelling. Valley Fest is a festival of “food, music and fun” – and really is in the most gorgeous location. When I saw the tents pitched up overlooking the Chew Magna Lake, it made me regret not camping. Just imagine waking up to these views. Absolutely breathtaking.

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We arrived at Valley Fest at 10am and made our way to the Weleda tents to say hello to the girls. I’d already met Naomi and Sophie at the Bristol Bloggers Meet so it was nice to see some familiar faces. I also met Carol who was going to be giving me my Weleda Skin Food Facial later that day.

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Before we did anything else, it was straight to Pukka for a cup of tea. They had so many on offer and they were so affordable. I know “it’s only tea” but Jess and I expected them to be around £3 each considering it was a festival yet they were only £1. They were also selling their eco-cups for £10 which included free tea for the entire weekend. I tried the Supreme Matcha Green Tea and fell in love and Jess had the Mint Refresh which is now a firm favourite of hers.

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There was so much going on when we looked around. Zumba at the “Lake Stage”, a Circus Workshop at “The Yard”, Chicken Run showing at “The Flicks” and a Baby Massage Class at Weleda. There was something for everyone. We had a wander around the various retail tents, selling everything from clothing, to incense, to handmade mosaic ornaments. But before we knew it, it was time to head back to Weleda for our Skin Food Facials.

Skin Food is Weleda’s signature product – it’s “a universal saviour of dry, rough skin” with “extracts of gentle viola tricolour, calendula and chamomile”. Skin Food is full of High Quality, Natural Ingredients. The facial was based around this product – starting with a aromatic rosemary compress to awaken my tired looking skin and moving on to a cleanse to remove any excess make-up. This was followed by a relaxing facial massage. I completely forgot that I was in a tent in the middle of a field, I could have been anywhere. The Skin Food was then used as a mask before the facial was finished with a lavender compress.

I’ve been using the Weleda Skin Food since the Bristol Bloggers Meet over a year ago – yet I’d never thought of using it as a mask. Which is definitely something I’m going to try at home with my sample that was given to me after the facial. My skin felt amazing immediately afterwards and I let the oils continue working their magic for the rest of the day. But more importantly I felt well and truly relaxed. And hungry of course, so it was time to find lunch.

Jess went for a Quesadilla from The Mexican Kitchen and I had a Vegetarian Curry from the Yeo Valley Canteen. For dessert we both had Eton Mess, again from the Yeo Valley Canteen. And I couldn’t resist one of their Gluten Free Brownies – divine. Again I was so impressed with the value of the food compared to other festivals. My curry was around £5 and it was a giant portion, the brownie was £1.5o and the Eton Mess £2.50. It was then time to head back to Pukka for a final cup of tea before leaving Valley Fest.

We had such a lovely day at the festival. We really didn’t want to leave. The atmosphere, the views, the food – everything was perfect. Not forgetting the wonderful facial from Weleda. That made the day for us. Thank you Weleda, and Valley Fest for having us.

Have you been to Valley Fest or anything like this before? I’d love to go again.

Until next time,

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The Blogging Blues - Where Have I Been?

I’ve been “blogging” for over 10 years now. Crazy crazy. And in that time, I’ve probably given myself around a year off. I blogged through secondary school, sixth form, university and now into my adult years. Definitely still not accepting adulthood quite yet though. My life, from age 14, has all been put online somewhere. The rebellious 14-year-old having her first taste of alcohol, the smitten 16-year-old when I met my now fiancé, the confused 18-year-old with not a clue what to do with her life, the 21-year-old graduate that’s probably never going to use her degree, the 24-year-old learning how to use a washing machine in her first house. It’s there, somewhere.

Blogging has been a massive part of my life, and even when I’m not posting consistently, behind the scenes I’m spending my days planning ideas and taking photos for future content.  I’ve even got a list on my phone of over 300 post ideas I want to write. I can never imagine blogging not being part of my life. Even when it becomes obsolete, I’ll still be here rambling away on my little place of the Internet. I’m sure of it.

2017 has been manic. You have no idea how relaxed I feel sitting down to write. I haven’t been able to do this in what seems like forever. But before I veer off in a tangent – in January Sam and I bought our first house together. A major renovation project because quite honestly, that’s all we could afford. For three months, we spent every spare second working on the house. Every. single. one. Whilst still working full time. It was hard, but we did it, and we’re now living in the house, finally. Although it’s still a building site and there’s still so so so much to do.

Sam and I work for ourselves and work has been crazy. I’m actually writing a post on ‘What They Don’t Tell You About Working For Yourself’ because I must get told I’m lucky almost daily. I am. But I don’t think people quite understand how much of a hard graft it is keeping a business running smoothly, especially as we now have a house to pay for. It’s stressful. It’s hard. But yes, it’s rewarding.

On top of a crazy crazy home life and a crazy crazy work life. My laptop decided to finally give up. And then the Internet. I’m still not used to this laptop, and I think I must be deleting more words than I’m writing as I don’t know where the keys are yet. I am absolutely useless with technology.

I’ve had a serious case of the “blogging blues”. I’ve been comparing myself to others, my writing, my photography, myself as a person. I’ve wanted to get back in to regularly posting for so long but every post I write just doesn’t seem good enough. I hate every photo I take. My posts are too short, too long, too chatty. There’s not enough photos, too many photos. I thought after 10 years of blogging I’d be over this by now?

I lost the love for blogging, I was writing because I felt I needed to, I was accepting products and collaborations for the sake of it. I was forcing myself to write when the creativity didn’t flow. I forgot why I started. I didn’t start for the freebies, the views, the followers. When I started, Facebook didn’t even exist, yet alone Twitter, Instagram, Pinterest and all the other social medias that dishearten me when comparing myself to others. I wrote for me. Because I enjoyed writing.

I think I’ve been spending so much time worrying about what other people will like, what will make me look good, what will make me stand out, how to gain followers, how to improve my writing style, my photos, my content, that I’d forgotten what’s important. I’d forgotten why I started.

Over the last couple of months, I’ve taken time for me. To spend time with the people I love. To do the things I enjoy. To sort my life out. To start exercising instead of complaining about the stone I’ve put on. To have my hair done instead of moaning that I hate it. And most importantly, write. I was starting to hate the person I’d turned in to. I’d turned into one of those people moaning about life, whilst sitting on their arse and doing nothing whatsoever about it. That isn’t me.

800 words later I think I’ve managed to say what I wanted to say in this post. I’ve rambled a lot when all I really wanted to say is that I’m back. And as cliché as it sounds – I am going to be the best version of myself I can possibly be. I’ve declined collaborations that I either don’t have time for, or I don’t feel I’ll 100% love. And I’m going to really start focusing on the things I do love. Baking every sugar filled treat I can possibly think of. My Manicure Mondays. Exploring. Skincare. Pamper sessions. Because you can really tell the difference between the posts I love writing, and the ones I’ve struggled to find the words for. I’m going to take my blog back to something I enjoy spending my evenings doing. And I hope you start enjoying reading it again too.

I’m going to leave it there. I’ve already written way more than I intended and I’ll end up writing another 800 words if I’m not careful.

Have you ever hit a blogging slump like this? What did you do to get back on track?

Until next time,

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